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Why is obedience so easy in concept, yet so frustratingly hard in action? Why must following the Lord’s way be so beneficial, yet take SO much faith to walk? Lately, as I have been trying to follow the commandments given me I have gone back to Abraham’s amazing example of faith and obedience. In Genesis we read of Abraham and Sarah and their desire for a son, despite being, “old and well stricken in age” (Gen 18:11). The Lord blessed them with Isaac, and through Isaac promises to Abraham were preserved (Gen 21). What wonderful joy and love Abraham and Sarah must have had for such a miraculous blessing that Isaac was!
But then the trial of faith came to Abraham. We read in Genesis 22 that God commanded Abraham, “Take now thy son, thine only son Isaac, whom thou lovest, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell thee of.”
What pain! What frustration of spirit and mind that must have caused Abraham, and surely Sarah too! To offer up this son, whom so many blessings were already promised through, and so much potential and love was given to! To be taken away, with a simple command from God! We don’t know the progression of emotions that Abraham experienced. We don’t know the test that he went through to obey that commandment. But the more I have thought about it, the more I have agreed with myself that Abraham must not have wanted to obey. At least not at first. He HAD to have wanted to find a different way, or find some logic or justification behind the reasoning of God. BUT, incomprehensibly, in the end Abraham must have convinced himself that he wanted to sacrifice his son and obey God.
What is obedience if you regrettably, grudgingly follow the commandment?
What scripture says that if you obey a commandment grudgingly then the commandment counts for nothing? I believe Abraham was a good enough person that even without knowing exactly why, he convinced himself it was for good and it needed to happen. He convinced himself that he wanted to sacrifice his son.
Am I wrong? Is that a weakness or a mistake to sidestep the bereavement by convincing yourself you want the same as God? Or is it better to do it that way than to obey without really wanting to? Is there a right way to be obedient, a right attitude? Abraham maybe wasn’t doing it grudgingly, but instead sadly. Is that wrong?
In what way am I supposed to be obedient? May I go forward, sadly obeying, or should I focus on convincing myself that I want to obey, despite it being terribly frustrating and hard and painful? I think it will take some deep focus and reflection on the scriptures and myself before I will come to any conclusion. Do you have any suggestions?